Sunday, April 29, 2018

Hit The Road. Heart on My Sleeve. Mosaic Heart.

I totally love Lizzie West.

L.O.V.E.

Listening to her songs this morning - I realized I'm feeling very close to a song she sang on the album Holy Road.

I have sucked at relationships.  Oh - that's such an understatement.  It's not always me - it's not always them - I think I'm not very good at picking "them."  I think at first I was too young, then too scared, then too prideful - now I'm just ... *sigh* 

Cautious.  Bruised.  ...

And I sometimes feel that if I get close to someone - so much so that I start to care too much - it's time for me to hit the road.  I can't invest that much anymore - because I can't hurt that bad again. 

...

And yet - and yet - and yet -

I love freely.  I can't help it.  It's how I'm made.  I love with wild abandon - it's what gives me joy.  One of the best books I read was a collection of insight and advice from older women or survivors of cancer.  They each conveyed - in one way or another - that the one thing they regretted was holding back their love for fear of rejection or being hurt again. 

...

I just thought of something... mosaics are an ancient and beautiful artform.  The more pieces - the more detail - the more breathtaking.

Maybe that's how broken hearts should be considered over time.

(Oh, Simone - I like that.)

...

May your heart know love.  Be fearless you beautiful souls.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Byu4_ezWiBs

Woke up that morning, slept hand in hand
Figured last night was a warning, that it was time to end
This great love affair
But I will miss you, and darling, I swear - I still love you
And all that we shared
But when you find you are so very confused
And you've got nothing but the world to prove
And you would rather say "I love" more than "I lose" him
It's time to hit the road again
Darling, I still love you - and honey, I swear
That I will always love you and all that we shared
But when you find you are so very confused
And you've got nothing but the world to prove
And you would rather say "I love" more than "I lose" him
It's time to hit the road again.
...
I woke up this morning, so far from your home
Knew I heeded a warning, so fast and so bold
But when you find you are so very confused
And you've got nothing but the world to prove
And you would rather say "I love" more than "I lose" him
It's time to hit the road again
Darling, I still love you - and honey, I swear
I still love you and all that we shared
But when you find you are so very confused
And you've got nothing but the world to prove
And you would rather say "I love" more than "I lose" him
Well then, it's time to hit the road all over again.

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