Buddha taught in the Suttas, “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”
I'm not easy to anger - but when I do, I flare like a big fire - and if given the opportunity to directly address my anger, I will cool fast. If not, I realize the coal sets into this slow burn/boil - if my voice is silenced then I just simmer.
Sunday I was taking an early morning drive and I was pondering situations that had recently flared my anger and I thought something that was bordering preposterous and telling...
"It's not that I think I'm always right - but I need to understand when I'm wrong."
Real communication, without backbiting, is my favorite kind of talk. I tell someone my view and perception - and then I earnestly listen as they voice their real view and we find the opportunity to move forward.
Mind you, it's not as nice as it sounds - sometimes I debate in technical terms - or I move my mindset to cement and need a sledgehammer to move me. (Sledgehammers are okay when you're trying to change the path of many.)
Hello - I'm faulted and human. Sometimes people don't know me well enough to realize that my ulterior motive is the best outcome of the greater good. But - in my current perview- you have to get out of your tower long enough to know this about me.
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And passionate. If I don't think it's the right thing - I don't do it. If it serves only me - I won't do it. If it creates, in my perception, a best path for many people - I'll push forward like a bull. I don't need to be right - I need to know when I'm wrong. I'll pause when I'm wrong. I'll stop and acquiesce to best next steps and I will, with a most humble nature say, "I was wrong."
But if you can't look me in the eye. If you are offended by a simple writing or path - then I hold that coal and simmer. And then I resent that I was holding the damn coal in the first place.
Open - accepting - just say your truth. Don't be manipulative. Don't be self-serving. Get off your seat (arse) and realize there are many people who depend on you to lead. Leadership is not an opportunity - it's a gift - and it's not easily given. Leadership has zero to do with you - but everything to do with the people that you can foster into being the best souls. If you can do that - they will lift you to the greater goal.
"Can't do" or "Won't do" or "Will fail" leadership un-inspires me.
Tell me - what can you do? What do you bring? How do you inspire your people? How do you collaborate? How do you face differences without overturning the apple-cart?
Consider those apples, Johnny Appleseed, because safe is only your one next crop - then you must answer for the next season, and likely, you will will find nothing more than decent compost.
*sigh.... I have this damn coal in my hands and I want to be rid of it ...
The crux of this is if I rid myself of it too early, then I'm not true to something beyond me and my ego.
The reality is that I have to take a breath, love, listen and understand that I do not have to understand everything.
Which leaves me humble and open to opportunity of enrichment.
This makes me receptive. (which is my daily prayer, "Lord, I am receptive.")
I refuse to let this burn much longer - but - I'll be damned if I shake my stake without cause.
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Be loved and strong and known and scared and hopeful and resilient.
Good purpose understands the best nature.
Love to you crazy souls.
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